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回来了???

一年了。。。我才发现原来我们两认识了一年了。。一年前的回忆是如此美妙,虽然我伤心过但是我也甜蜜过。。虽然我们没在一起过但是回忆里有很多《我们》而不是你或我。。

直从你对她有意思后,直从知道你本来就有女朋友后,我伤心了很久,哭过了很久,很想死,但是我走过来了。。 

如今你又出现???你到底要我怎样做??你都没错,错都在我。。我对你是有期望的。。是我没放弃你吗??还是什么呢??我不了解自己。。我恨我自己。。今天的拒绝,我很懊恼,但是我是应该拒绝的。。因为~~我了解你,你不爱我。。但是我不是你的玩奥,我有感觉的。

你勾起了我很多的记忆,为什么呢??为什么要提我的事呢??你要我怎样呢??你的笑对我很有压力,因为那真的太假了。。 我不喜欢。。我在车里真的很想问你,既然你记得那么多,为什么不记得你要去台湾前一个晚上我说过的话???你应该记得吧~~那晚是我在众多人面前流泪而是不能停止的泪,想要做戏笑一个给你看也不行的泪,为什么你不记得呢??我永远记得,我的泪是你和她唱着我和你的歌。。想起来我还是觉得《痛,疼,伤》。最后的最后,在停车场,你跟我的拥抱,我是如此可怜的哭着跟你说《这个游戏我玩不起》还大力把你推开,你记得吧???

我对你的爱就从那天晚上消失了。。有思念但是没爱《是真的吗??问问自己,我也不懂》。。

我想跟你聊,认真的聊,不要像今天这样的疯疯癫癫的聊。。其实我说真的,我希望给你和我一个机会,就一次。。你愿意吗??

Hot & Sad Saturday

It's a hot Saturday today, and a sad saturday too because of you. I feel so sad that you said we don't treat you as friend?? Quite hurt when i saw that.. 

Sometimes i try to use another way to let you know i miss you but you don't understand my heart. Feel so hurt. I re read the messages you sent, its was so cruel

We never treat you as friend?? Don't want us to be your friend?? How come it ended till like this?? Is this the way you avoiding the love i gave to you??

Not that you don know, i told you before, if you treat me like that i will  behurt i will cry. I know you don know how to treat people good so i will tell you how do i feel and please don do that to me anyway today AGAIN you you you you hurt me again.. Should i just release you??? I really don wish to love you anymore.

Jerk Guy**

Still remember our 1st met in a coffee shop, even though we just sitting opposite each other but you did not even see me at all, that time i hate you. Wondering why are you so proud of yourself, you have nothing, not even handsome till our eyes will drop?? 
Slowly even we are friend but we are not that close too. We are just the type which say "hi and bye". But i don mind because nothing will happen between us, I KNOW THAT. 


Slowly slowly, i also don know how its happen, we're so close till eveyday we will meet each other. And do you know when i fall in love in you? that's when the day you told me you like me. I know i am stupid to believe that, i don understand why guys like to make joke with that?? Its not funny, its hurt, because you made me fall in love with you but i only can say you're crazy as i know we can't get till that stage, as i know you love some1 else, i know you, because i am your friend. I am stress that i have no one to tell?? I am no way to express my sadness and the most terrible way is that i will need to laught in front of you?? Why should i do so?? I LOVE YOU.. In my heart my keep on screaming the same sentence everyday. You know how hard am i to close my eyes at night?? 

There are lots and lots of story to tell but then i scare you or maybe your friend might read my blog, i am worry.I rather to hurt myself than to lost you as my friend. I know i am avoiding you till you dislike me anymore but then dont you think its good for me? Because i am in a dead end. One more minutes with you, will let me love you one more percents and now my love for you is more than half as i don wish so. 

And what i wish to say now, u're such a jerk. Because you left me aside with those scary feeling. And you just happily living with your loves one. Haiz.. how i wish to find my love one also. But keeping you in my heart is not a solution. I will need to find a way to forget you.. But then how????

What do you think about the story for today?? There is another story to split out but.. hopefully i can finish the story. Just want to make my blog active. So wasted if i just stop now. Hehehehe..

Secret Part 1

Wow.. Its almost end of the year and i start blogging again. I am too busy with friends and friends.. Don't have much time to stay alone and quietly at home.

Today i will start of with my recent feeling and a small secret. Hope that no one will know i start writting blog so no one will read it yet, I FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE THAT IMPOSSIBLE WILL LOVE ME BACK.. Dont ask me why i love him then, love doesn't have any reason, its a feeling.. Don't u think so? Hahahahhaa.. I think i am getting more and more crazier about him.. 

Want to know more story about my feeling.. Stay tune~~~

Year 2010

Now i just realize that i dint do any posting in year 2010, wth!! I am so lazy till i have nothing to write?? Hmm.. tat is a bad habit.. Since i started then i should continue maintain my blog, rite? Yeap...

So.. i have no idea wat to write leh.. Any idea? Wat u guys wanna read from me? Nth rite? Hmmm..

Let me think think 1st.. k?